Monday, February 24, 2014

阿嫲,一路好走...(2月24日)

阿嫲,为什么你就这样突然走了...?为什么???
前几天明明看望妳好好的,还能有说有笑.....到底为什么???

妳知道吗?
今早9时多分在班上只是上上Facebook下...表弟跟inbox和我说妳走了..

妳知道吗?
我看了他写的信息后,我头脑一片空白,手正发抖,我不知道该做什么好...
我已经开始慌了...太突然了...于是我慌忙地走出外面打电话给我表弟..
我听我表弟说妳昨晚已经开始很不舒服了...
我妈要带妳去看医生但你不肯去...可能是心脏问题...结果今早5点就走了...
挂了电话,我坐在墙旁心碎了...
眼睛红红的...我很想哭...但我想忍着,我要专心上课...
到最后我不能顶了,乱想东想西,我真的接受不了!我走出外跑去厕所里大哭了一场!

前几个星期,知道妳心脏已经不好了。
我曾答应过自己要学煮菜,我真的很想学!
也很希望妳能有机会尝试吃我煮的菜。
但是日子一天一天地过...做自己的东西,忙东忙西...
结果现在没机会煮给妳吃了...

现在想找妳一起斗嘴,耍坏蛋来跟妳开玩笑也没机会了..
如果有那么一天,我找了个未来女友,想带给你看给你认识认识,让她知道其实我婆婆有多开朗,很喜欢热闹,但已经也没机会了..
前几年我曾有在心里想过,我希望你能活得更久,因为我想我结婚后让你有机会抱我的孩子..你一定要好好活着!

从小到大,我很想感谢你一路来对我和我弟的照顾...

小时候
我和我弟都经常吵架,然后你就过来拿藤鞭来教训我们..

小时候
我们上幼稚园妳和阿公都载我们回家..
回家的路途中还买两支冰棒给我们吃..

小时候
我哭了,妳都会sayang我,把我抱进妳怀里..

上了中学,我已经开始叛逆了..

中年级的时候
我经常顶妳的嘴,变得很不听话..

中年级的时候
我脾气非常地不好,妳骂我,但是我还是忍住了我的脾气....

中年级的时候
我考完试了,妳都会关心地问我考得怎样?会不会做?过得了那就好..

中年级的时候
我经常出去和朋友聊天聊到很夜经常让妳等....对不起....对不起....

我沉默,我哭
那是因为从小把我顾到大唯一一个亲人就这样走了...我真的很痛心...很痛心...

不过
你放心,我会好好坚强起来的
你放心,我会好好努力读书的
你放心,我不会像似小孩要让人家经常担心
你放心,我会变得更成熟的
你放心,我会努力做好我自己!

还记得吗?这时我们那一年,2008年的合照,也是最后一张的合照..
我现在看回去,其实妳比其他女生笑得还甜,笑起来比其他女生还美丽...

Sunday, January 12, 2014

坚·信·觉(1月13日)

在中学时期,我不知道是我不够努力读书呢还是根本没去努力呢?因为每次遇上Essay或KBKK时,我的猪脑总是转不起,还是懒惰转呢?而且每次要读的时候,头脑第一个反应就是“死背”!完全没要去明白什么..进考场后就是开始伤脑筋。要转都会Stuck着。读书前,考试中,这几个阶段都一定会感觉到压力的,最后出来的成绩总是一落千丈。悲哀啊....

“英文顺利过了!接下来明天考Civic了,该读什么好啊!那么多东西要读要背哟...唉...”右手抓痒自己的头。真讨厌背!背了还是背!明知道哥我记性就是不好嘛..晕...有时候还真逼不得已背呢...也成了习惯...身边的Housemate都有自己的方法背,而我就是不喜欢背,想用其他方法读。说真,一直死背,不去明白,头脑会变得很“死脑”吗?凭个人觉得是这样吧!因为我之前就是习惯死背不去明白,结果当天考就很难转了,变得很死板哟!其实空闲玩些转脑的游戏也是有帮助的~~

当时还上着Sem 1时,IOM Tutorial Lecturer曾提过,来上College的,都是来从中学习我们错误的。我赞同她这句话,这句话我一直牢牢地记在心里,从没忘过!哪个错,就改!坦白说,2013年是我这一年以来学到了好多东西,交了好多朋友,挫折,坚强,孤独,一起快乐,一起伤心,统统都经历过了...2014年,会是怎样呢?就要看自己的努力经历了什么吧!

考英文前几天,我们的Tutorial 英文老师,我最敬爱的Miss Tham,她在FB Group分享了一个Link给我们。那写着“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. ~Maria Robinson”。我看了,我有点感动我有这样的老师疼我们,不断给我们些鼓励。她,是我遇见最好的Lecturer了!对!不论从几时开始,只要从这一刻开始行动,你就给自己建立一个属于你自己新的结局!

经过了Sem 1那次战,我真的快崩溃了,每科都要熬夜读,不,是背!最要命的就是Micro和Pengajian Malaysia了。背到半死,也不大要去明白,而Account呢也不知为什么头脑转不到也经常Balance不到。最差最不会就是这科了。结果出来是C+....

经过这次了呢,我不想再犯同样错了!我真的怕了...唉...坦白说,他们怎么都那么厉害背,我就不是呢...哭了....T.T

这次Sem 2 考试,我算是多多少少都准备十足了吧。考试前读,除了IT,都是因为花太多时间读Social和Civic了。当时我真的有点担心,因为IT真的挺多东西读的。不读Civic和Social又不行呢,考英文后就是考Civic和Social了!虽然还是有背,但这次我比较多去明白它,用自己的字写。虽然挺冒险的,可是我就是要尝试看自己的方法行不行得通!重要的,不要怕,因为怕了就渐渐开始觉得压力了,压力了你就读不进而整个人快要崩溃的样子。隔天考试就把你一了百了了...不但不要怕,还要一直提醒自己,“我不要再像之前想那么多了!我能的!我准备好战争了!”不然就是叫身边朋友给你一份鼓励提升自己的自信心!“我能不能过着了关?” “能的!加油”

然而,要考IT前两天还真熬了!太多太多东西背了!伤脑筋...其实,坚强是多么重要呢!还好当天考还行得通!都是用自己明白的写给它。

其他科也是,希望过得了这关吧!话说,回想起中四中五时,我的Chemistry老师曾有提过,全部问题你要回答时,你要把它们当作一个人,它们什么都不懂,它们要问的是什么,你就要解释给他们听。其实,这样挺有用的。

我最怕的Account也算顺利吧?虽然Balance不到,不过会好过之前吗?

会比Sem 1好吗?我不知道,我觉得过了就过了,等成绩出来就知道了。(待续.....)


Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Friendship Begin in Gurney Plaza(5月22日)

I'm not in secondary school life anymore, everything has been changed! I'm now just started in college life. At the beginning, I was quite alone, felt not so desperate because I can handle it and used to be. But slowly we just took our brave to step in front of it to pull our friendship together more closer. We have been closer and closer in tutorial class. Not going to act like stranger just pass by. And here it goes. I mean, the story just started right now.
Time flies so fast, after we're finished our tutorial quantitative class at 2.30p.m. We're discussing about went to Gurney to celebrate for Joey went to KL this Saturday night. After that, Pinky and I are going to Gurney by TARC bus at 3.10p.m. Both of us walk into Gurney and look for them. After I received the message, we're at 3rd floor and finally just meet them at Tong Pak Fu. Pinky and I sit another table at left side because there's no more table and chair for us to use. We just order a dessert and some of them order fish ball with kuah. I just can say that it's very delicious! Especially the fish ball with kuah! We share together our dessert to taste it. After eat and chit chit chat chat, we went and do a small meeting. They say they want buy some present to Joey but  some of friend already brought it! WoW damn fast! Haha.. During the meeting I simple take some photo. :P
 Where you're all going?? ._.
Cheeezzz~~ :DD

 After that, we went cinema hall. During ths discussion, we also take some photo together.

Salute to SBS student! :PP

After taking photo, some of them back to college meeting, some of them back to hostel and still half of us remain in Gurney buy ticket to watch movie. At first we want to watch 《Star Trek: Into Darkness》 but some of them watch already. We want to watch 《Fast and Furious 6》 but some of them don't watch soprt car. Conclusion, all of them going to watch 《Fast and Furious 6》, Haha! When we went to counter buy some ticket 7.30p.m. movie., my younger brother call me help him buy ticket too. So I call my friend help me buy it. Moreoer, there's only still have few lane in front of the seat. So they cancel it. I call back to my younger brother only few lane in front. He say it's ok, so I went back again buy the tickets. At first, he say 4 person, after that plus more person. I thought the 5 person not include me. After buy the ticket, I fell getting weird. I call back the him, he says got include me. Aduhh... T_T
Cost RM13. Taiping Sentral's cinema not as good as Gurney's cinema and still cost expensive than Gurney's cinema. Pop-corn also cheap than Taiping Sentral more and more. = =

After that, we went for walk. At the half way, we take some photo again.
Chuubiii~~~ >3<

At around 7.25p.m., we went to a small restaurant but don't know what's the name it. ._. Meanwhile, my younger brother call me and we wait at cinema hall. We say goodbye and see each other tomorrow class. Oh by the way! 《Fast and Furiuos 6》 damn nice!!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

工作记(12月12日)

虽然不能一天一天地和大家分享,但我还是缩短也好啦~省些精神去做工..哈哈!:P
新的一天开始工作时,当时的心情确实是非常的紧张呀!之后Assistant Supervisor分到我顾MySize那里。
嘿!就是这里啦!都是专门卖给大大只的人。:3

工作了好几个星期,Worker里的人都蛮好的啦~Supervisor和Manager也是。其他做Part-Time的马来毕业生也是和我一样等着成绩出来哟~哦对!说到Worker,我还真想分享些东西关于我常和一些Worker她们沟通的。

一,有一位Worker漂亮马来姐今年23岁,她的男友在Ipoh做工,每个星期其中一天都会看望她或Off Day Dating。我想了想,和我之前有那么地一点点一样。当时我爸妈在槟城住时也是每个星期六回来看望我们或出去吃之类,星期日他们就回去槟城了呀~不过,去年开始他们就搬回来住Tycoon Villa新家那里了。

二,有一位Worker Auntie是顾在我左手旁边那里。她也挺好的啦,跟她野蛮聊得来,聊了政治东西啊,教了我些怎么顾衣服、如何Serve人之类等等。这时让就让我联想起了好友,跟她性格挺差不多一样的。判断力是其中一点!

三、也是有一位Worker马来Auntie是顾在我的一点钟方向那里。她呢,蛮容易搞到一些些是非。有一次我进来工作不久,我看到她打电话不知打给谁,然后大哭痛骂故意让他们听见,我看到了其实真的有些惊讶。到底怎么了呀?我旁边那位Worker Auntie和我说他脑袋不懂哪里Sot了之类,人家没讲她但她却说她们悄悄讲她的闲话。虽然到现在为止,我还是有时和她聊下下咯,不过也非常聊得非常小心,以免踩到地雷哟!有次,她也和我提到关于人生道理啊,一些Agama之类。确实,这时候有种一瞬间感觉让我回顾了过去的我。嗯!我以前怎么和她都是非常胡思乱想的一个啊!(很显然地以前的我没像她那么严重大骂之类啦!只是我是个容易想得太多的人。)只是忽然觉得因为她,她让我想起在学校的我,我想了想,我几乎有点惭愧怎么我这样子的啊?哟哈!-_- 确实,我觉得我现在比较好些了吧。哈哈!

嘿!历史重演在我眼前吗?LoLx!

有时候就是顾客非常的少,尤其是Weekday时候,简直闷到爆哟!还好我在学校里借了些小说在那里阅读。薪水一个月有接近RM900左右。看起来很轻松叻?哈哈!也是啦!我店那里不是很严肃But还是顾好一些些自己形态,尤其是顾客进来时。另外,进来做Part-Time也有一个月多了。跟Worker们都熟悉了蛮多下,有时候我们会闹来闹去,开个玩笑之类。他们啊,岁数虽然大,但就是那么地活泼。这就是我以前曾有听JCI Trainer的人说过“人老心不老”。
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一个月多里都有不少朋友进进出出,我拉上我的嘴角微微笑对着他们。好友也有一次进来和我聊天。有得朋友买钱包送给朋友当做生日礼物,有的朋友和一家人买衣服之类。然而,有次正当店里冷呼呼的,我走出向外面之前,我的眼睛超过去一点钟方向有位穿着橙色T-Shirt,穿着黑色短裤背着书包。我的脚步便慢慢转到那里的方向。原来是Joshua Peh,当时我整个人怔住了下。他人已经不是在California吗? 后来他才连忙和我解释他还没去,现在来这里买些钱包然后回家收拾之类。在他要挑选钱包时,他挑起两个钱包问我哪个比较好看,于是我挑了半黑半Chocolate色。再挑另一个让我做选择,最后决定依然还是它。他付钱后便和我道别。
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看了好几本小说咯~话说尤其是邓秀茵的作品实在是赞的啦!
《一封迟来的新》、《太阳城》和《幸福的味道》也是其中之一!:3

不知哪来的兴趣,我变得好爱看小说去叻。或许是之前在学校里的好友受影响吧!不过算是好事啦!之前没耐性的我看看几面就准备趴在桌上咯!看字体又慢,我还记得非要花差不多5分钟才看完两页呢..然后慢慢地,慢慢地压住我的耐性。最后终于迷上了小说,看字体也不怎么傲慢去了,呵呵!
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还有,SPM之前我的Blog几乎都有差不多一年没动了。最终有次直到认识了“她”,她写了她的部落格给我看。我看了看,从头到尾花了差不多一天的时间,眼睛都快花了,但我还是坚持着我的耐性看看。看她的部落格时,我几乎可以幻想到一些些。我也不知道是不是错觉之类的。虽然Grammar有些错误啦!哈哈蛤!(请息怒呀~~呵呵!(~ o ~))But还是学了不少的字在里面,也学到生活其实可以那么美妙的啦!哈哈!最后那个Passion又回来了,我又开始对部落格产生了Passion出来写作!后来我又联想到了关于小说里的内容。其实人们可以选择自己要过怎样的生活的啊!也多亏我的几位好友又那么爱看小说,慢慢地那个病毒转染一半给我了。嘿!我可有想过要把我的生活写成一部小说叻!(自以为是九把刀咩!?不可能的啦!哈哈!)虽然这个挑战是非常的高!也可说不可能的事!但怎说我想尝试看看!再来的事,先搞好自己的语言现在说先吧!语言确实是非常重要之一,它可是能将我们的要说的东西与感觉写进文笔里。:3

蛇年快乐! (2月12日)

新的一年,新的开始!
龙年终于已经过了呀!话说回想当年我啊,可还是Darul Ridwan中五学生要面临非常苦闷的SPM考试啊!想想下...时间真过得好快哇!我毕业了不久正找了份Part-Time来补充在自己的时间上。而且,我还不想那么快上Collage先,因为我想先做工拿些经验及赚钱。另一方面,我还想赚钱买手机,Sony Xperia Z,一部防水又完美的手机啊!我看了Trailer简直完全对它一见钟情啊!
就是它啦!是不是很美叻?? :DD

在做工这几个星期的时段,我原本想写开新的Blog来跟大家分享我的"工作记"哇!很可惜我一做工回来就很夜很累了,Off Day就一个星期只有那么的一天,自己的娱乐休闲活动都丢完在那一天里。我的计划就这样彻底失败了.. :X
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另外,我正等着3月SPM成绩公布出来,4月才开始去Collage。其实,我有点不敢面对SPM来临的成绩呀!恐怕有点凶多吉少,再多几个星期就要面对事实了。有一天早上,我朋友从云顶做工回来,隔天早上就去学校盼望老师们。有位我们的老师说由于大选将在3月不知哪一天,SPM成绩可能会在2月尾。在Erican补习那里的老师说3月头将拿成绩,看来那几个星期非常的可疑,可能性非常的大!
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哎呀呀~~新年前个星期Taiping Sentral有好多节目呀!里面非常的热潮,人山人海,外面非常的赛车!做着工的我随着没顾客就快快走过去店外那里拍个照。有时候在我正是休息的时间,我看四周围的人眼睛里闪射着光芒,一副佩服得五体投地的模样地看着台上艺人精彩的表演啊!

 巧千金!
《新一年》
 舞狮精彩的表演,实在是引人注目哟!本少我还真没机会看,实在有点可惜..T_T
 《皇宫灿烂》艺人
 四大美女!
来个Pose! :P

 这六包红包和报纸是我买衣服过RM88拿Receipt去换的。坦白说,这些红包好美又非常抢眼呀!要塞钱在这些红包送给别人倒不如自己来做收藏不是更好吗?哈哈!
南洋商报《金蛇舞新春》
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最近很多人都拿起手机自拍自己的Look,年初一一张,年初二一张,年初三一张,自己想拍可是脑袋的信息就是传送不了手里,动不了手伸进去裤袋里取出手机来自拍。哈哈~对了!说到初二,那时候PSY过来槟城呢!都没机会去看呀,也没什么兴趣看。那天可真赛车呀!倒不如自己在家上上网等他们发上Video上来,晚上跟一家人和邻居们开Party放鞭炮。还有,看到有一个Video可真想笑呀!Penang Lang,我好佩服你们!也很荣幸自己也是出生在Penang Lang哟!:3

Monday, December 31, 2012

Finished Trip, Start to Work(12月20日)

I woke up around 10.30a.m. and brushed my teeth, took a bath. Then, my parent took me to ate breakfast. After ate finished, we went to bus station and brought a tickets to me. Actually I still can stayed 1 more day with them but I have work tomorrow. There's no choice for me to stay one more day. The bus will came at 12.00p.m., I waited at aside. When the bus came, I went in. The time flew so fast. Tomorrow is my work day and it is first time for me. I wonder how would it be? And thats it, my trip had finished. Lets Start to work.

Head to KLCC(12月19日)

We woke up took for breakfast at MC Donald. My smallest brother haven woke up and my dad said to uncle 'When we went out, he woke up and played laptop'. When we back hotel room. It was 100% true. Haha! Gotcha! :P After that, we picked up our luggages into car. It's about 12.00 or 1.00p.m. we arrived at Ascott Hotel. After my dad check in. We went into elevator and this elevator needed card room to activated so that we can went those floors. When we went inside the rooom. I was excited it was a huge room.

After we put our luggages aside, we went to KLCC.

At first, we went to San Francisco Coffee for drinks and ate.

Meanwhile, my mum, smallest brother and I went for shopping. My second brother went back Taiping with his friends by train. We were going to buy Digimon full packs disc for smallest brother but can't found out. So we went to buy T-shirt for Chinese New Year and other things. After that, we went to Madam Kwan's Restaurant for lunch.

At night, a lot of people at the lobby celebrate Christmas.
The choir team sang Christmas songs very well. We clapped our hand and got people  act as Santa who gave us sweet.

After that, we went to Pavilion by footbrige. I was trying to find the Converse shop ti buy shoe with my dad. It was almost 10.00p.m. and finally we found out the Converse shop.

After that, we went back Ascott Hotel.